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Friday, December 16, 2011

Sociopath Boyfriends

In the past year I met a guy, who was very cute, charming, and I thought had a future. This was all very wrong, except for the cute part. I first broke it off with him in February, thinking I would never talk to him again. He tried and tried to get a hold of me sending me letters, calling me incessantly, etcetera. Then I called him back to see if maybe we could just talk out why he had gone behind my back, dating another girl. (Why I forgive people so easily I will never know) We decided to try again, 8 months go by, we are fighting a lot we break up once or twice, then I find out again he is dating a girl in California behind my back. This is why I am here to make those mistakes for you.
I hate myself for falling for him again, and this time deeper. I feel so stupid. I ignored my friends and family telling me he was a terrible person and I deserved better, I also ignored all the signs that were clearly there. I knew I deserved better but for some reason I wanted to put up with it. Now I realize no one liked him, and I obviously have selective hearing and that totally sucks! But in the end I learned a valuable lesson. Now and forever he will be a shadow  in my memory.
If you have any questions about these kinds of sociopath boyfriends let me know, I know how to deal with them.
Love,
Isabella <3

Monday, April 4, 2011

Playlist of the week

  • Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hilson
  • 11th Dimension - Julian Casablancaas
  • Hold Me(feat. tobyMac) - Jamie Grace
  • The Ballad of Mona Lisa - Panic! At the Disco
  • Too Too Too Fast - Ra Ra Riot
  • Heads Will Roll - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
  • Under Cover of Darkness - The Strokes
  • What You Know - Two Door Cinema Club
  • Take Me to the Riot - Stars
  • It's OK - Cee Lo Green
  • Rolling In the Deep - ADELE
  • Love Never Dies (Back for the First Time) - Caspa & Mr Hudson
  • Animal (Glee Cast Version) - Glee Cast
  • S&M - Rihanna
  • 7/4 (Shoreline) - Broken Social Scene
  • The Cave - Mumford & Sons
  • Blow - Ke$ha
  • Little Lion Man - Mumford & Sons

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Under the Influence of No Influence

I have recently visited a few colleges in New York City. Until a few months ago I was dead set on being an "ACTOR" (said dramatically), however I came to the realization the only reason I wanted to be an "ACTOR" was because I wanted to be famous. Now the only reason this came to me was because after finishing a long and grueling struggle in the role of Ophelia in "Hamlet" I was let down. Though people have continuously told me for months, my performance made them cry there was no "rush" no enthusiasm left within me, so I moved on. My mother encouraged me to think about going into the fashion profession, she told me "You are never doing your homework, the only thing I ever see you doing is looking at fashion magazines, shopping or online shopping". Then it just hit me! Why hadn't I thought of it before! So I visited "FIT" Fashion Institute of Technology (http://www.fitnyc.edu/).  This was the place, until now I was wandering aimlessly, sometimes crying to my parents asking them where would I go and what would I do?!? Their only comment was "don't worry you have all the time in the world to figure out what you want to do".  Now, I think to myself that this is not true I still want to be relatively young when I start my "job" I don't want to be old and crippled, then my father reminded me he was an insurance agent until he was 30, when he met my mom and was inspired to be an Anesthesiologist. He reminded me that he graduated from med-school when he was 36, now he is the president of Anesthesia at the hospital. So what do I take from all this? Yes, I may still be an "ACTOR" later in life but for now I am interested in fashion, and that is what is giving me my "rush", and hey if I end up famous because of it, we'll chalk that up to fate.